There is nothing that enrages me more than fat models. I don't like the celebration of morbid obesity, you're, okay in the skin, that you're in okay i get in my food. I don't give a do something about it. I doesn't make me any less of a human being.

I am offended by the words. The reason i am here is because i feel like in the past. Fat has been such like a like derogatory term and, like we've been so like ridiculed for the way we look. It's almost like.

I want to take that word back and make it a positive thing like. Oh someone called me fat ugh, so negative and be like. Yes, i am, you know what i mean just like change the way we think of it a lot of words that should offend me. Don't i think it's because i'm just kind of like i don't even need the word to know your intentions exactly so.

I know your intention and, if you're using it to like hurt me, i don't care what word you use. I care, i just don't look at like a word like that. As being like, i don't want to give it power. No, i don't want to give it weights yeah, i'm only standing on this one and not strongly disagree, because some people do like try to be plus-sized like there's like lots of people in the gay community that are called like eaters and feeders.

So people do try to be bigger, but i mean i don't think it's necessarily a choice. So that's the reason why i'm not strong disagreement. He hit the head. Yes, yes, i lost 60 pounds in six months.

Everyone was so happy for me. I hated myself. I hated the way i looked. I hated why i did why i exercise and things like that, and so i made the conscious decision of my parents - are not going to be supportive or maybe they won't like it.

My community, the korean community, is going to be really disappointed that there's a fat korean walking around the world, but it was a choice for me to say: well, i don't want to work out eight hours a day every day and hate what i look like to Be skinnier so i'm gon na let myself eat more than a quarter cup of white rice today. I disagree because what i believe in society, especially in america, we have this idea that oh yeah, all fat people ate themselves that way that they just sit at home and they're lazy and they don't do anything and they ate themselves. That way, because i don't agree with people, people, people getting viable, vocal minorities or whatever and and saying everybody does that because they everybody says that come on now, but they don't take into account. People who have a disease wow take into account people who work out and their body is just built because it's double generalization.

It's several factors that the average person who's. Judging people don't take into account and they just look at someone. They say oh you're, fat and you're not doing anything about it, but i also wanted her out there like. It is possible that people have eaten themselves to that point.

But then you look at like. Why did that happen? Like there's trauma, there's rough coping mechanisms, there's so many different things that can lead to somebody resorting to that and then eating them. That's not what the question is, though, ourselves into this situation, because i know that's what happened to me. I didn't choose it, but it happened when i first went back to korea, which is like the country of my parents and like it was amazing for me, and i was like wow.

I look like everyone else. Right like this is my home country. This is supposed to be my place. It's not my place because i'm fat and so walking down the street people are like.

Do you know how easy it is for you to get liposuction? Oh, she said what, when i first went back to korea, which is like the country of my parents and like it was amazing for me, and i was like wow. I look like everyone else. Right like this is my home country. This is supposed to be my place.

It's not my place because i'm fat and so walking down the street people are like. Do you know how easy it is for you to get liposuction here? They won't even scar because they can do it pretty for an asian person or whatever i had family said. You know what we'll fix your ears, we'll fix your nose, we'll fix your eyes, your lips and all your fat, and that is just it's mind-boggling to me that you would even think to offer that or think that i dislike my body, and i think that's also The thing the critique comes from this idea of you must hate how you look, so let me help you. I think i think it comes from the association that, when, if you're fit you're more healthy than if you're big, if you're a big size, there's a lot of there's a lot of us eating about negative health impacts.

And that's what people mean by that? Everyone in this entire room has been criticized for their body like it doesn't really matter what size you are. You could be the skinniest girl in the world you're going to be called like a fat like if you think that this is like exempt from you. Don't say that the problem is that you're going to get mad about it. It's a vicious cycle.

I understand no, but it is that the way the way it works is it's just the truth, though, like it is i get it. I eat unhealthy and then i'm held unhealthy. I don't even tell me, i know, hundred percent. If you tell me i'll, say yeah, i agree with you.

I'm unhealthy on jubilee, your joints, your heart, your it is more negative for your health to be overall a bigger size. End of story. That's not how i feel about it. It's not what i want.

It's not what i need. It's not say anything, it's just the truth, though. I know what to tell you, i i i'm not going to lie to you and give you lies, and you feel better, i'm not going to tell you, i'm not going to tell you that. There's no side effects, but the reality is.

If you're going to ask and say, hey man is this: yes, they are because what else you're going to be called like a fat like if you think that this is like exempt from you, because we're bigger or we have different body types like no we've all Been shamed for our bodies, people feel that they have the right being don't say over being overseeing is just as bad. Don't their views on to you about your personal body. The fact that i have rolls on my belly and big thighs doesn't make me any less of a human being. My body is not for you, i didn't ask you, that's it.

I want to lose weight. The reason like i hesitated so much is because i will love the way. I look no matter what, at the same time like, if i like, was to keep dancing and keep going to the gym and all this, and then i just like happened to lose weight. Like i'd also be like cool i'll, just let myself no matter what is pretty much, what i'm saying.

Oh bye, see ya. I want to be here because this is like the work that i do and i feel like doing this is gon na like make it's like being here, someone's gon na, say something to me and be like. Oh, like, like you, aren't probably positivity, you aren't perfect activism. You want for liberation, but like this, that has nothing to do with anybody else.

What was the question? Was it keep going to the gym and i was like, like i want to lose weight. I want to be here because this is like the work that i do and it's like doing. This is gon na like make it's like being here, someone's gon na, say something to me and be like. Oh like, like you aren't, provide positivity, you want perfect activism.

You want for liberation, but like this, that has nothing to do with anybody else. Besides me, i think like if i, if i say if by this and i'm not saying nothing, asks myself, i'm saying like you know what sometimes i do think about losing weight, because i do and like and like everyone does, because there's privileges when you can't be Honest chat in a lot of in a lot of fields when it comes to social uh dynamics. That's moxie, people use arguments like people will say, people will say people will think people will. Thank you, okay.

Let me tell you what matters the most in the world. What you think, what you want that matters, the most so you're smart? I don't know why natural to think i want to be somebody's argument, there's so many more options for me if i'm smaller, but i don't want to lose weight, i'm so bugged out today. For me um, since i am a dancer, it is the most annoying thing like i go to auditions and i'm the only like plus-sized person there and literally. If you go to a concert and see an artist, you will like never see someone that looks like me.

Dancing back up for, like chris brown, all they care about is you know, oh sex sells and you know plus size isn't sexy, which it is obviously, but they don't. They can't get that you know out of their heads. That skinny is like the like top tier of like life. So what kept you, though, from on the strongly agree, i don't really know i just felt like it was like it's like a big choice.

The world is created with it's. I don't think that sex sells that much. I think it's because in dances i feel like unity is people all in in choreography everything saying the same time. It all looks the same.

I just feel like people, i'm not gon na. I'm not saying it's both, but i'm not gon na, say it smaller bodies in mind. Like everything we experience when you sit in a folding chair when you go on an airplane, when you go to the movie theater and the unfortunate truth is our population is not like i'm just saying. If there's background dancers, everybody spins, they look like they'll.

Look like ballerinas or everybody's spinning at once and you're kind of looking like a they do. Did you you look like a spinning ball man just like organically speaking. Smaller people have bigger privileges because the world's designed like for them. I had to quit a whole career because of my size, like i got my first degree in musical theater performance.

I was ready to go to broadway and then through college. I gained 65 pounds, and not only did i watch my professors lose interest in me, but i watch casting people lose interest in me and that's how i ended up in education, because i want to teach that that's, not okay, you can play any role because that's What's baffling to me, is that we're in it if you're playing the roles on the name who's, it literally is written in the script that is a certain height and a certain size, and you come in your fat. Okay, you don't get the job. Are you fetching? No, you want somebody that just this size and, as i said, are you fat? Yes, you can't take the rule anymore in a story.

What the in theater we can suspend our disbelief that, like animals, can talk and things like that, but we can't when, when tom hanks, with a role for for forrest, gump the guy who runs it, we're like crazy. What if you decide to get fattened, i'm full force gump, what the except, what no one size person could have. Somebody follow the food's gon na get fired unless it's hair spray. Like that's the only story we get and that's infuriating.

I love my body. I love my body, but it took a lot of time to get there. When i graduate the same way, i won't play hugh jackman being jacked. I got i could do dude i got and i was in, like the biggest place that i've ever been when i was in the prom depression that i can't even like begin to explain about it and then, when i went off to grad school, i was like Something has to change.

New city knew me, and so i got up every morning and i looked in the mirror and i was like what can i like about myself today and i learned how to just love every little part of me, because it is mine. It belongs to me and if i don't love it, who is going to okay, so what keeps you there that it took so much time to get there and being plus size. I don't love it. I don't hate it it's here for me, and it's got me this far.

It's sabotaged me in a lot of ways and that's that's its own journey um. I just think for like a lot of younger folks like when i was your age or younger people said either hate your body or love your body. I wasn't either way and i was in the middle, and so you feel so stuck, and so you feel so alone and it's this idea of it's okay, if you don't love your body, it's okay, if you're not obsessed with it, just be kind to yourself and That's that's good enough if you can be kind to your best friend, you can be kind to yourself, and so that's. That is why i am here every morning, i'll wake up and i will like get out of bed and i'll look in the mirror and i'll be just like.

I was like i'll like rub like my chest, guys. Imagine guys i'm i'm just saying this. Okay, i don't want. I don't want to to question and destroy our society's fabric, but imagine if you, when you went to the airport right and you checked in when you buy your ticket, there was.

There was a scale, and you had to you, had to weigh yourself before before, paying for the ticket or pay more or less right. Just imagine it because if you ship something or if you have weight that you're trying to put on the plane, what happens they wait and you pay more depending on how heavy it is right. But just just imagine i'm just i'm just saying the plane's heavier. It has more stuff in it; it costs more fuel.

It literally costs more. Ah, listen like with my stomach i'll like shake my ass, like touch like like like like, i want to like shower myself with love every day. What yeah, i'm i'm just saying - and this is really important to me - to give myself the time to be like oh, i appreciate my body before it does for me like do i want to change, sometimes share, will it maybe it will? Maybe it won't but like in the day like i will love it regardless, because it is like a home for me and my soul argument good humans thanks for sticking around um. So if you guys want to receive a mystery gift box from us in the next week, okay uh, let us know why you love spectrum so much in a letter to jacqueline what is the first time.

I also have the same argument. I just feel like it. You can't think of what people are going to like and not, and you can't get upset people like something or doesn't like something some people like certain size and services or whatever and it sucks. But you can't fight that right.

If you try to it'll, just get weird and odd everybody's going to live in this fantasy world, where they pretend whatever and it's just it's just weird, nobody wants to do. Give that you.