No oh no dude. No shot guys. This this it feels like um. This feels feels like entanglement all over again.

Guys this is gonna be like entanglement 20. It been in minutes over the last few months. I've been doing a lot of thinking and personal work. You asked a lot of fair questions that i want to take some time to answer okay again to you most of the heavy.

Hard. Hitting questions are not in there. 32. Months.

Pac man can i get a welcome to the jungle pac. Man. Xqcl. Why didn't you apologize.

Jesus um. Guys to chris. In your acceptance speech. Um.

I was fogged out by that point. It's it's it's it's all fuzzy. I've reached out to chris um. And the mesh.

The message that came back is that he's not ready to talk and when he is he will reach out that is not the question so i will i will say to you chris. I apologize to you uh my behavior was unacceptable and i'm here whenever you're ready to talk um. I i want to apologize to chris's mother. I saw an interview that chris's mother did and you know that was one of the things about that moment.

I just didn't realize um. I don't want to on them okay or go on okay. But um. I think a lot of people were kind of kind of weird about the whole the whole ordeal.

Not that it's a big deal. I think that requires that much attention. But i think there's a difference between like smacking somebody melee range and uh being in a public place and whatever and for people and walking up from your seat and walking literally dozens of meters. All the way to the stage and then slapping that's like bro that's that's an extreme.

There's so much there's so many layers of like thinking. And and and and pre meditation. Behind that like melee range is something okay going across the universe is a whole other one that's not the same thing at all you know i wasn't thinking how many people got hurt in that moment. So i want to apologize to chris's mother i want to apologize to chris's family uh specifically tony rock.

You know we had a great relationship you know tony rock was my man um and uh. This is this is probably irreparable um. I spent the last three months. Um.

Replaying and understanding. The nuances and and the complexities of what happened in in that moment um and wow. I'm not going to try to unpack all of that right now. But i can say to all of you there is no part of me that thinks that was the right way to behave in that moment.

Oh that's no part of me that oh that's cap dude dude dude. No shot okay dude no parts come on man like i said man if this was a melee range incident. Okay then no part yet guys. This is some some sort of part rage or being upset.

Okay. Okay is a part of something that you kind of lose control of the part of you right. But there are limits to that okay whenever you their time goes by like like seconds like a bunch of sites and then you walk. We go all the way out okay.

There's at least a part of you that is that way come on man like dude. It's not that big of a deal let's come on optimal way to bro okay dude dude come on now a feeling of disrespect or or i have it i have it after jada rolled her eyes. Did she tell you to do something no um. It's like you know i'm i made a choice on my own from my own experiences from my history.

With chris jada had nothing to do with it funny i'm sorry babe um and say sorry to my my kids and and my family for the heat. That i brought on all of us um to all my fellow nominees. You know this is a community. It's like i won because you you voted for me.

And it it really breaks. My heart to have stolen. And and harnessed. Tarnished.

Your moment. Um. Ah. Okay.

I can still see quest love's. Eyes. You know it it happened on quest love's uh award. And i know that it's you know it's like i'm i'm i'm sorry really isn't sufficient what would you say to the people who looked up to you before the slap or people.

Who expressed that you let them down um. Okay okay yeah. I suffered this is kind of weird. Though you let them down oh no dude.

I watched somebody who does a acting dude okay and he didn't behave the way that i wanted to behave. I was let down man. I'm so i did that night. I i'm just gonna say you guys.

I cried okay i can sleep. I cried all night because i had expectations of the person who plays the roles that i like as an actor. Okay him not doing the things that i want to do is a let down that is such a letdown yikes um. I'm not i'm not buying these movies anymore actually i refunded there's two things one um.

Disappointing people is my central trauma. I hate when i let people down so it it hurts it hurts me psychologically and emotionally to no. I didn't live up to uh people's image and impression of me and the work. I'm trying to do is i am deeply remorseful and i'm trying to be remorseful without being ashamed of myself right i'm human and i made a mistake and i'm trying not to think of myself as a piece of um.

So i would say to those people guys you guys guys. Okay okay. Let me put in the way. That you understand that this is my argument.

Okay. This is my it's my my take again. And you can see this agree or agree. It's fine.

Okay okay you're you're at the bar. Okay you can you're kind of drunk. I guess okay and then and some girls like talking to whatever okay and then instantly boom boom. She leans over it she leans over okay and for some reason you you're in a great relationship and then you kiss her just right right.

That's in my opinion. A mistake. Okay you i i you should do that not do that i don't do that and i expect people not to do that okay. But you can say that that's kind of a mistake right i feel like texting somebody flirting with somebody going to somebody's house.

Having drinks with the person with intentions or whatever. Then putting on a movie or whatever right and then and then making out. And then and then doing an intercourse. Okay.

That is not a mistake that is not a mistake. Okay. I hate people who don't play these events as a. It is a series of events that leads to one and is it that that thing at the end is a mistake.

I disagree okay. It's a series of elaborate mistakes okay. That isn't so i don't like this really. It's a mistake.

It's not though no you thought you sat down. You thought about it you stood up you walked all over there. And when you stood the chance you still went for it that is that is in more than eight miss. I don't like the the dumpling.

It's a mistake everything's stupid no it was confusing. I know it was shocking um. But i i promise you i am uh deeply devoted and committed to putting light and love and joy into the world and you know he gets the potential better. I understand i just i just feel like it's been downplayed a lot a little bit that's all if you if you hang on i promise.

We'll be able to be friends again what can i crack do i do um. Most of the kinds to be honest really tonight.