Let's do MC runs for 30 minutes with no one to talk to look I feel like you'd go crazy I would go on a rant. yeah but but I want to know but no, what would steer your rent? There's no Brian to be like oh, you're an idiot and then you'd be like what? what you know what I mean Okay, all right other than also I think there's not a lot of noise I can hear my entire house I can only hear my PC fans. This is really hard. Should I even talk about my my experiences overall or not I can't I can't see what Chad said about this question I'm not even faking it I'm just gonna lie I'm just gonna lose a little bit. so I don't know like what I should do or not. maybe I should talk about it. um like I feel like I'm cheating like creating something to talk about. but that's all I used to do when I saw Jimmy I think just create something to think about it because nobody talks in chat. it's just gonna be kind of just alone and just doing stuff. This guy is at the beginning. You know you have to use the chat as a um as a diary. You know, just kind of talk to yourself the whole time and um, it's good practice to become a streamer. You know, just talk to yourself a little bit because uh, you have to. It's just kids, the skill you have to develop learning how to make something out of nothing and I think um I'm decent doing that. Overall, it's making something out of nothing, especially when it comes to content or whatever. like whenever you have I'm not thinking like oh, a little bit of this little bit of that I'm saying like oh up, um like it's literally nothing like actually nothing it. you're sitting down at your computer no game I Think you have to do something, but you have to. It's not like you want to is that you have to. You set a perimeter for yourself. You know, like today I want to do something here. So whatever happens, you have to do something here. You can just say oh, then you know what I changed it and you not do it like you can't do that. There's no skip it like that I hear them 42 on the right side. No, it's bad misery of a life man these days. just kind of how it is these days. she can't catch a break on anything. It's okay though. It's okay though. But if you get mad about oh, it's not petting Answer: you play differently then you lose I mean you deserve it because you've played differently because of things that I saw. Your control always maximize the things that you control and minimize things you can't control. Then you're good to go. really. Uh, what? The fudge? 54 Man Like? what? who am I talking to man 54. that's why I said it well I got so mauled at going outside. um and it's at the mall or whatever, right? anybody? anybody was staring at me. it was yeah, because you're crazy. It's because you're wearing a chain or you're wearing some right and maybe some of them are valid. but there's a lot of people that are staying at me because maybe that's because I was loud or animated with my arms I talk about it. It made my arms a lot. Whatever. I I have an idea I see something here I see a lot not visually in my head and I struggle and I get mad and then explain something because I feel like nobody's seeing it and I want them to see it I'm like look, look, it's right there but I can't say it's there because it's in my head, right? So it sucks a lot because um I wanted to see it. So I end up moving my arms in ways that are like look, it's like that, right? um yo? it's like that, you know, but they don't get it. Someone remembers a lot. somebody was staring at me outside it and I got I got them all but like I did it honestly did it. it's it's it's kind of crazy. um I was surprised nobody started filming or some then. So I was like man, people are gonna post something I'm gonna look like a crazy over a psycho or something like that, right? So I was like oh man, people are gonna post people. uh somewhere people people are gonna post on Reddit and people make fun of me for it. but I kind of like a bit I can like brain snapped so never go outside. Oh really, go outside and I was feeling like Suramel. you know, just like I'm here right now I mean I'm talking about right or talking to whoever is listening. um but I'm talking to chat right now, right? So I'm in like stream mode. Well I'm just talking it I'm talking to my thingy and sometimes I don't click back I usually click whatever I'm more aware but sometimes I don't click back right and I forget I'm gonna go I was I'm gonna go out with somebody I'm gonna go outside that's at the house and I'll end up um, talking to them but I'm not I'm not clicked in or clicked out of it anyway and I'll act the way I do as if I was on stream and I think that's why people were like it was just starting at me. Nobody was like pointing or whatever. it wasn't like that. Weird. But then I started speaking even more loud and moving my arms even more on purpose and I started looking at them as I was doing it like I was talking and I was talking more loud and with my arms anymore. Just just added Spike I was mad while I made contact was was staring at because I was like why are you staring it I get it. I'm myself I'm a big um people Observer I like to observe my surroundings. What do people do? How do they act like what are people doing in their environments? but can we get a run going like just some lava just a village like what the is going on man. um so I get hit people sometimes You observe people like people. maybe people see me, they observe. maybe it's because my hair color or something like that I don't know right? it didn't make me mad that that mad I just thought it was such a difference between things I found I find her like not actual behaviors but whatever, it doesn't matter. um anyway yeah I'm gonna run it right now for no reason but nobody can say one man, nobody can say it's unlocked. ah my neck hurts anyway and it was staring and I found it to be just oh I was absolutely I kept like talking louder and and moved my arms around at them and the results that more people were staring in and you know what? Another thing about it, it was a very deliberating experience. Actually like how would the live expensive matter the most? That's why I'm making an ecosystem that um that is fun to engage with. it. It's cool because like I'm nothing fun or making a little bit of fun people having a lot of fun and then we can balance energy off of each other. It's like a cycle like ah, this is this is Wicked right? Oh, you lose touch with that. You lose it with everything and Adam fell in out of touch with that and my entire career career. Real job low. Not not like that like in my entire life. I've never lost touch with that, that was still my cell phone. If I lose touch with that I I might as well just quit I know because then it's what's the point. What's the point in pretending or whatever people say? Money that doesn't matter, doesn't matter, but it isn't It's not a flex I Say this all the time now. Okay, it's it's a realization. I've been retired when I was 23. I'm 27. Okay, if it was all about the money or the I would have already retired it. Okay, the reality is that real life is pay to win. It is. it's pay to win. You make money by having money I gotta make good Investments riskier ones. Okay and I will just let it slide and just let it run its course and it I could retire today but I don't I enjoy this I Enjoy this format. You know that's why I think a lot of fun I Think it's a lot of fun. Makes me happy I'm thinking a lot to be happy though I mean I guess if I found another system if I just if it doesn't make it I think something else I'll do something else I probably enjoy a lot if I if I did other things doesn't matter what I do it's I always enjoy what I do so I've always been made fun of me for being uh, a janitor back in the days we are going to be going north East um for being a generator I loved it and I think it's when I become a janitor and I was loving it I was like why do I why do I like this so much I actually like this. It's a boring ass job and I realized that it doesn't matter what it is to put my head to it I'll end up enjoying that and I don't want to lose touch with that and the minute I lose touch with that I lose touch with myself and if I go to myself then I am completely lost. You know it's it's not. Don't be the same anymore you know and uh I don't I didn't want the stream to be that I was always I always been very scared to lose touch with what I think streaming is and knocking about the chat people that enjoy it that makes people that make the stream what it is. that's why I say I always say uh thanks Chad from you don't want to end it it's my French quotes. Well that's what I meant by that. Make the stream what it is, make the experience feel good or feel alive for what it truly is. Live content and try to maximize it as much as possible. Why is it live? Why is it live? Could this be offline? it? I Guess it could do. Is it good But to find ways to make it feel alive? Because that's what it's all about. Making something. Are you breaking piece of there? It is right here. Oh wait. Magma cubes. Now we can't loot over here boys. Oh no Hell nah. Foreign cubes, skeletons, skeleton archers Blaze spawns back and forth more Blaze spawns in one open field than the spawner would give me in a fourth I was awaiting it Minecraft is so stupid I This game is okay. What was I saying that class I was saying earlier. Okay oh man. if I went to deserts it would have been fun I didn't go to visit I deserve this failure. It's my fault I'm ranting. Who am I talking to man I don't even know it's probably been more than 30 minutes. probably just controlling me I haven't looked I I didn't look at the time the timer. all I have is my timer for the Speed Run I have no idea what time it is. it's probably been an hour now I don't know I just did this failure though. Uh, 4 30.

we're gonna just keep going until a little bit for more and this whole thing was kind of weird I just like it. um like I don't think about so many things I don't know about about anything yet. No I was about a lot of things I don't know which one I'm thinking it. Oh but I think about this. it's gonna lame and now I'm overthink the whole thing and then it becomes lame because of that I created this doubt that now became what I was doubting it I created it a doubt that became the reason What I should doubt or could doubt. that's bad, that's bad bad. that's why I feel no, it's not more of an all-in hot or cold either you think a lot or you don't think at all right? Um, because if you don't crust, crust, crust I know it is with me. uh I get a lot of mouth Quest like in between my lip cracks like stuff gets stuck and it crystallizes a little bit right and I get that like all day and after like wipe it all the time. It's just kind of annoying. Yes I brushing my tongue and now I'm not obsessed but I brush my tongue all the time. and if I don't have a thing to do it I do it with my fingers like and I'll make sure my tongue looks good and smells good and I love that now I I love that I love brush my tongue I love that though and I also love it brushing my lips no I have it I have a decent looking good smelling lips and tongue right? This is weird, but we can still make a chat. Trust me. Okay oh my God mosquito touched me and I thought oh my God oh my God oh my God oh my God oh my God oh my God oh my God I got way more skin than I normally do we get scared about about uh, getting touched or whatever by um, like bugs or something or just overall I don't know why this was so much cheaper I guess because I'm more focused than whenever I had to talk to chat. whatever. that was insane. Yeah, it's okay. it's okay. it's okay. it's okay. I still telling it move I mean these guys have no Hobbies no job, no goals in life. you don't it in my face. so annoying side I need to stop swearing something that I've noticed a lot I swear so much it's like I don't even like it I mean swear because I want to I swear because I don't have any better words for it. you know, like crash I just keep swearing all the time. It's just lame. foreign on some pearls. Man, you dumb actual losers just can't make that up. Really, you just can't do it. It's just lame. It's just you just can't never find. Just it's just lame. Like 10 minutes in I can't get some pearls man. like just pearls Pearl Pearl Pearl Pearl Pearl Pearl If the game starts failing, you like it's in the code. There's a certain amount of approach to be getting portrayed uh, mathematically and you're just not getting it You: it's so lame. it's so boring. It's so boring. it actually is it. No, let me say how it is. It's boring. To get trades is bad. just for this troll face looking ass dream to come along and alter the code of the game. Okay and get all the truth that he needs. Let's get the record in it. like I can't even beat the whole Bowl but it's a trade luck man, it's trash man. Well the minutes is over. I Think it's over now now. I have I have a six DMS There used to be a time where I wouldn't have anybody and I'd get like zero DMS a day and you know what? dude? I I I church that time I I Would it's not even that bad like people? Maybe people doesn't send me the answers. They're watching the stream. maybe right and just wondering what's going on. Um, and they give me about something else and now they feel they feel bad. It's a DMV I'm not even I'm not making you feel bad for giving me I'm not I don't really, that's what I'm doing okay I promise I'm not making about the gaming. All I'm saying is that I'm just iterating it saying over all that it should be done I talk to nobody and I would do this whole stream when I have again a single DM you know what? I kind of enjoyed that not having my attention to slip. Infinity I when I stream I stream man I do the button thing I click the button until I don't want to do the button thingy and then I click the button one more time and I go offline. Okay I don't want to deal with some all day man I if I want to do that I would have went live I want to do one thing with Naomi I'm very selective and how I do things just like when I get a meal of food okay I get a meal food I'll get like um, you go to restaurant right? um and I get a meal I never ever ever ever it's like a bite of steak. then take some potatoes and take some green beans I I can't burn myself to do today I Think people who did or or like brain bricked maybe I don't know that's brain bricked I don't give a why it's causing that I'm saying is that I like doing it is I eat my steak I got potatoes I like green beans, three separate layers, one at a time, three seven I don't have an experience of mixed things I experienced things one at a time, one at a time and I enjoy that man. What am I saying that? What was that relating to one thing at a time I do things one thing at a time I don't know what I was talking about normally I have chat and I'd say yo chat what was I think about and she'll say it and we'll say nobody cares what he's talking to but um, one thing at a time. but by the time that I got there in my head I'm only like three topics I had in my head like that's why it's so lame. Sometimes like I'm already three topics ahead past the one that I forgot what it is. It's very upsetting. It's like sometimes getting shut. the real back is kind of easier. Um yeah, diamond yeah it's why I like not having Discord open whatever but then like there's always the emerging season, the people asking stuff and like you know there's just friends of mine. uh I mean you need to have like some sort of they don't need but I guess we're social creatures. uh something that oh man I'm trying to talk to Edina So now I hate about some reviews. Humans are social creatures. Yeah bro, we we know this like we'll get it man. but um oh man, get one poking good one and it's the first time I had an imp an influx of stimuli that is not from the game or what is the bible say that it's over existence and I turn off my chat too. So I'm here with you buddy I have no chat I have no really, you didn't look anything. no I I was watching the whole time. but now I have no chat. nothing okay I'm I'm better chat one close I'm closing out a little bit Warzone without how are you liking this experience? It's a lot of fun I think I'm I these days I don't have a lot of time and I I have no picture by the way. still I'm still open without chat I'm still looking at my second Monitor and it has nothing. me too I I closed everything um I used to really like talking to myself a lot like I think like dialogues of myself. whatever. Uh, out loud and just because it's important that it's out loud right? and not um in my head because then I said something and I feel like I'm hearing myself talk right? So I'm like kind of talking to myself that dialogue I think it's really good when I say something I hear it, then it's like I feel like there's some sort of interaction there. Does that make sense? Um, and I felt. That's kind of how I felt a little bit. It's kind of therapeutic that I can talk and hear myself and I have any input that alters the experience or fragments it. So it's not fragmented of an experience. It doesn't stop or change or recourse because of some some person or some spam or whatever. It's just kind of like I can see the ideas from start to end without interruption. Really, why conversations are just really hard for me because ADHD just takes over halfway through the combo. yeah, something and I'll be like wait. He's right. that's interesting. and then I'm talking to the other part of my brain. That's like yeah, you can skip over. they can skip over if you want to. You know what? I'm saying. Yeah, I know. But sometimes it's just like the idea that I'm aware that I'm thinking of both and the idea of being aware with everything because then I'm oh now I'm trying to focus back to what he's saying. but you know what I'm saying. Does that make sense? Yeah, it's fun that I mean we could be able to another boat. let me just pull it up I'm pulling up China ready. Um I just clicked it in I clicked it in that says f oh yeah, you've been offline the whole time I don't know what's happening. my brain is like completely like rebooting it like bro yeah I was gonna come out when the when the timer came to zero but I saw that you were actually just enjoying it and you're still running like how long wait? How long was that? Maybe like 50 minutes an hour? I I don't I could this because it was 20 minutes? but I believed Yeah.