Um, six plus size people. there's one fake. The Creator launch pad is every it's ever here. Where jeans like just yeah.

where do you guys buy your jeans from that? honestly depends I've had some luck I mean I'm I present more masculine so a lot of the times I will like resource to Old Navy I'll just kind of go there and like get one of the bigger pairs. um I actually did just get a pair from Old Navy like a couple weeks ago and I love it but it's a little big in the way so I do have to take it in I'm probably gonna tailor it though. so uh but I do love Old Navy's jeans especially their men's section I don't really wear jeans. this is different.

these are plus size people not as models right? but I think the only two pairs that I own are from Xi'an I feel like it depends what style I'm going for like for fitted jeans I definitely think like is my go-to Obviously they're like on the higher end of like pricing wise but they like make my ass look great. Well that's the thing. Also like getting the confidence to actually wear what you want. it took me forever so when I actually did I'm still in the mentality when I was like 16 17 and I could fit in a medium them so I'm like oh all right so and there's nothing I'm gonna say what I heard was a there was a cabin there somewhere there was a cap.

you guys in this entire video a woman, there's one Gap oh this I can't go to the store I can't go to a mall and buy clothes anymore I would say two years ago I would go to like Goodwills and value Villages but that has become a lot harder as of late. The reason that I chose to do this was mainly because it meant a lot to me to share the idea of like as you transition away from being in a bigger body to potentially being in a skinnier body that is not something that like makes you harder working or better at like achieving some sort of goal than the other person or another person that you may see in a plus size body and going into it I like promised myself I wasn't going to tell any lies I was gonna be very truthful and speak on every kind of experience I Think it's cool to be humble um I think it's very important to like I think when you do certain things that you know, it's cool to like level out with them sometimes I think I I can't even though I'm in the position to talk about this of course by someone so how to take it? It does. it does. I I don't I don't really, just take it.

Why don't everybody just say again experience myself I wasn't going to tell any about the other person or another person you may see in a plus-sized body and going into it I Like promised myself I wasn't going to tell any lies I was going to be very truthful and speak on every kind of experience that I had had leading up to today that I lived through. I Think putting on a character would be disrespectful to the other people that were here today. I just with most of my clothing and like I have a tailor for my pants anyway like back in Taylor's yeah 100 especially when I'm back home. uh, I'm 15 minutes outside of New York City So I usually just commute in there.

there's this one thrift store I Don't know if anybody's been called the L train and like that is really good for carrying bigger sizes back in. My actual Hometown I can go to my tailor very easily. It's like a five minute drive from my house. Okay, so I Thrift probably 90 of my clothing cheaper, saves energy and like it feels way easier.

There is no way he's gonna go pay like 15 for jeans then go pay 45 like I get it as a plus size person tailoring for some things great but I could not believe for a second that he is tailoring every set and I was like he he is not fat anymore. Not gonna lie, shop at Ross a lot or Marshalls and finding jeans is hard I it's a hit or miss. Sometimes at Ross they'll have bigger sizes, sometimes they don't but if it says stretch then I'm usually good on it I actually didn't even share where I got my jeans from but I realized that I usually shop at like American Eagle Jeans in general are like a struggle. We find either they fit your thighs and they don't fit your waist or they fit your waist and they it's a struggle.

Yeah, jeans are trash I don't like them I don't think jeans are good, Not anymore. Anyway, really why him man I did feel I guess invalidated in the point because they were talking about you know Brands and you know and stuff that I can't really afford so I thought my answer of oh I shop at Ross because that's what I could afford I thought Jesus that's what kind of eliminated me So I was gonna say if any of you guys did any form of like performance as a kid. some of us were models before sorry about names but how that affected you growing up and how like the idea of Performing and being on stage was definitely more difficult for you than your peers. That is an awesome question.

Well you start since then. Yeah yeah. so I I was on the math team for my elementary school which was like very fun and I enjoyed it a lot but before I first meet when we were doing practices and such uh they gave us the vest sizes and I remember putting on the largest vest size that they had and it clinging to my skin and making me very uncomfortable. and I walk into the bathroom and I was looking at myself in the mirror and I was like I can't do this and I quit And it really frustrated me that I let that take away something that meant a lot to me.

That was definitely like my first experience with Like. it is very difficult for me that outside elements are going to take who I am and make that a form of a problem as a woman in a plus-sized theater. Community it's like I always got the funny roles or the really unattractive roles and I'm like I'm big. That doesn't mean I'm hilarious like bro.

We could talk about this forever. Yeah, so that that's super powerful because performing and coming into yourself, you either have to be overly confident and fake it till you make it or it will tear you down. So I'm very sorry that that happened to you. How do we all identify? Do we identify Like what do we use to label Yeah? I guess I Think it's like a part cultural thing, right? It's like a dude.

Dude Dude dude. It's like it's like when you've already watched a cartoon. right? And there's like a fat kid and then the bullet comes and he kicks kicks. The fact it happens with a fat kid.

Well, he rolls right? That's funny. Okay, there's a lot. There's a lot of funny elements in culture and and things like that are like funny people. That's just how it is.

It rolls, it's funny. like you what? or they bounce like I don't know ourselves I'm saying oh, that's funny LOL that's funny to me. What? Okay, like I said whether you agree with me or nuts I'm not saying I think it's funny even though maybe I think something or not I'm not saying it. It's what Society finds funny.

It's one of these shows and these these skits work and when it worked for years. Okay, okay, a lot of jokes are like about the fat kid, right? So somebody being fat kid at it right? It's just kind of how it is like you're not gonna fight what Society thinks it's funny like. and of course if you have one, thank you yeah I have a weird feeling about that one for some reason I like just normal. yeah because I'll say fat and then people be like oh my God fat and then I'll be like it's not in here.

That's like a bad word. That's the thing. no. but it is kind of taboo because I was like oh yeah, I'm fat.

don't say that you're beautiful I am gorgeous but I am fine oh my God I I do I feel beautiful? but I am fat. Being fat or plus size does not mean that we're not active. Let's learn a group of people only because they're fat. That's what I'm saying though.

I I I Wish you I wish you didn't take it like that I wish it is that for certain roles of like funny right? they'll find it easier right? But like it dude. of course we can have less roles like being the superhero Chad muscle guy like brother? uh like what if that were not nice people that were not worthy like worthy. It really sucks when people treat you differently because you're a size 18 rather than a second excuse me or when I like for example oh great example I Went Halloween shopping and it's really hard because like oh first and foremost trying to find the plus size costumes. they're like oh it's just kind of integrated everywhere and it's like realistically you have 200 costumes here but only like 10 are for plus size.

Then I go on to the other costumes and I was like oh my choice is to be like a duck or like the plus size one. the plus size non-costume covered boobs, knees, everything but the skinny costume for them for sure. Yeah and I'm like so I literally like my choices like be a bubble bath or a duck and I'm like I need a plus size section when I walk into somewhere because we have not progressed. There was this brand that like that had this big campaign saying they were launching extended sizes and then it came out and it was like completely different than the straight sizes and I'm like we are just asking for the same thing.

Why do they get cocktail dresses and I get literally Wait not I missed the Mr couch What? I missed them so much they will know that they lost them. I I just I'm psychic I know I know one of you was on to something. If you think the most what What? Well there's other guys that oh it's still in the box. oh my God please raise your hand I'm never talking in my life then it these videos then it I'm done I'm done I'm done I'm done.

There's a difference. Okay if you're sitting next like what the I think the the odd one out is probably somebody who. guys if I'm in the house somebody wakes up upstairs and they go out of bed and they jump out of bed right? Okay and they weigh 50 pounds. Is there any difference in how it's gonna feel in the house? if somebody's waiting 250 pounds one is gonna go boom bang bang like What? the of course like what lived as a fat person but lost the weight.

But usually a lot of the times people that do grow up fast go through weight loss or anything. It's physics like. what? the um, that's not in all cases. it's not in all cases, but it like it does happen a lot turning it on that like I really do think that in my personal experience, people that go from being in a bigger body into like becoming skinny feel some sort of resentment especially because I think they tie achievement to what they've done.

for some reason like there's this, there's this very big principle of like look at what I've done and they very much they push this like American Dream ass mentality. yeah, like genuinely like I worked hard and I did this just like, well not everybody wants it. Yeah, fine, that's fine. if you want to lose weight, do that but you don't need to like project onto everyone else and I would think if you were somebody who lived that experience honestly dating.

I've met many guys who were like I used to be big so I understand that being smaller is more desirable and it's just like this conversation just rubs me the wrong way because I've been met with so many people who think like that and like the worst person I dated was very fat phobic and they used to be bigger and they lost weight and they were so I I understand it might be running over the wrong way and it's trash and I I'm sorry that she feels that way, right? but unfortunately she you can't be getting mad at somebody for thinking that way or woman still feel that way, right. It's what Society thinks as a whole it is. really. it's an idea that Society literally agrees on.

Everybody agrees with that. If I'm gonna say everybody's maybe not you Charlie there's an overall as society When you think about the big chat. Bulma Let's have an average attractive person right? right? Well you know they will be of a certain size. That's just what it is right.

that is flat out what it is or like Shameless You know we'd have better sex if you were smaller. Oh my God no honest and it's it's the connotation right? Like yeah, yeah, because they like quote. Well I was gonna throw up air quotes because they like put in the work. that part being the air quotes and like became uh into a skinnier body.

all of a sudden they're just like you aren't working as well. Again, not everybody wants to work that hard exactly. Can we also go down the line and maybe just say if we have been fat or plus size most of our life or actually that's great because I wanted to say for me it was a little bit different growing in. South America There isn't a lot of overweight people, obese people and I've always been curvy so to speak and I was fine but I was still like you know how they say you I spend my skinny years thinking I was fat.

So I moved to the US when I was 16 and I started getting weight. you know the life here is different I wasn't as active I wasn't doing sports anymore and then I was on birth control. So for me it was hormonal imbalance that made me gain a lot of weight, but it really sucked in you know, in my own skin. I'm gonna start crying I'm sorry.

um you're not like being skinny and like now you're fat and like everybody treats you different I think it's it's difficult too because um, you know I grew up I've been fat my entire life and I've always envied in a way like the I like I've always wondered what it would be like to live in a thin body and how people treat you differently like I've always I've dreamed about it and I think that is really difficult when you like yeah exactly you I understand what you're saying like you've lived both and it's hard because you know from people who have an interesting yeah and speaking into the whole spinning your skinny see, look at this: you just adhere to mainstream beauty standards. Don't project that I'm objecting it. You just said it there. These are mainstream beauty standards.

I'm not projecting I'm telling you that a mainstream beauty standards is a mainstreaming beauty standard. How am I projecting it I'm acknowledging it that it exists like do you understand what you're saying it? You're so dumb. You did it So brain dead. like what ears feeling like you're fat I definitely relate to that.

I'm a bulimia Survivor um I was bulimic for about eight years and I also played volleyball and it wasn't like in theater and stuff like that. and the only reason I take it. take 1 000 random Americans lose Americans and say say drum paper what you think is an attractive woman or guy right? What are they gonna draw? Well they're gonna draw right? Come on, come on, come on, is the shape going to be more like this or that? I stopped throwing up and binging and purging is because I was losing my voice and I love to sing and I got nodes. oh no, that's the worst.

Oh my. God I went from um mezzo Soprano to mezzo. Alto Are we all crying now? Pretty much um. but you were saying these are Western standards when the West is probably the fattest.

What? That makes no sense at all. Yeah, like if it didn't affect my voice I don't know if I would have stopped. stop Stop. It really broke my heart after.

you know, having to vote people out. Who in my in my heart I knew were fat to just feel invalidated. That just that sucks. That really sucks and these guys clapping them she what because I wasn't crying I'm sorry y'all Oh come on, this is something that we're wrestling with.

Do you feel like it took away from the experience? It was just like being in the space where we were sharing our stories and everything felt so heartfelt. But it's just a game. But overall, it was really awesome to be in the space and have these conversations that don't happen often if you don't have fat friends to talk about them with. As someone who grew up very self-conscious and didn't know where to live in turn to see people like me.

I Take that on as an adult to speak about these things and have these conversations that we're still confused about. If you think the mole is still in the box and you wish to continue playing the game, please raise your hand I Swear to God if anyone's lying. Oh my. God If the lights turn green, that means you have voted the mole out and you win.

If the lights turn red, that means the mole is still in the box and you lose one. Two three. Oh no, we lost one on the count of three. Everyone can take off their blindfolds.

One two three. I Knew it. I You guys voted me okay. Should we talk about a million and one reasons why it was? Derek Okay, the only one that got me was like the theater like I really could relate with that so I obviously know that Yeah, nothing.

There is not a thing. Yeah. So when I was in fourth grade, I was four feet tall, I was 144 pounds and my doctor told me that I was morbidly obese and it was a very like self-image wrecking thing for me because it was. he used language that made it seem like I needed as opposed to just assessing where I was like I said.

Everything that I talked about before was true. but when we were talking about people being incredibly fat phobic that go through a transition of being in a bigger body yeah and then yeah, he was so muscular okay. would play King of the Hill okay and I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding.

Okay guys that it's bullying right? But he liked that we would play like 61 right? It was either us on the hill or him and he was buffed as a as a fifth grader and sometimes okay, we'll jump on him high and it would be three of us towered on them like like a like uh like Patties on a burger right? and he would go oh Avery climb the hill with us on his back like in the movies it was insane dude. I'm not getting it. the quote unquote, it was a buff as that experience for me was I mistook the pain that came with not having self-love as being associated with a number on a scale and as I kept moving the goal posts further and further away for myself and saying like this will be when I'm happy with myself and this will be the time in my life where I like the way I look and once I do this I'll be happy with myself I was no happier than when I started I just kept being further and further from a goal that I was changing I am happy not because of the way that my body looks, but because I can have self-acceptance and that's a very difficult Journey for anybody. Go on and me losing any form of weight played no factor in that.

I Hope that in watching this video somebody can learn that the horrible stereotype that they have of plus-sized people. Whether that be that they're lazy or sluggish or they don't eat right or they're not healthy. There are people that are plus size that are faster than you. There are people that are plus size that are in better conditions than the average human being.

I was definitely plus sized for a long period of my life and I still feel the residuals of like the way people treat you for being in a plus-sized body like to this day this is the first time it's true but I I feel like using data outliers as as the main as the main drive for arguments is not the way, not the way to go about it. but I still agree I'm hearing a lot of these things because at least for me growing up, it wasn't like being bullied or anything like that, was just like my own mind attacking myself like seeing in the mirror and be like oh my God you're fat. You need to lose weight. Outside of that, like I didn't experience like the bullying and name calling I didn't see anything you guys about obesity for camera expertise like how I had an eating disorder when I was younger and how I overcame that and then I slowly started drifting back to it I'm trying to lose weight now in a more healthy manner so I wish I could have told that story to the group.

I'm sorry to anybody that shared something personal and then like because of this feels like they were lied to or like I really I I came into the game with the idea of just having fun and I promised myself like I'm not gonna lie a single time that when I speak it's like I didn't want to like come in here and build a character I Hope people who watch this video whether no matter what size you are I think it's important that we're just kind to people and treat everyone with respect I hope everybody just takes away like empathy. You never know what someone's going through, you never know why someone's plus eyes I don't know. Okay, what's my stage name? What What word you're making from the fat people? If there is one group that he gets bullied, it's fat kids. Well that's honestly.

B Okay, what's my stage yo? this is X x on the video I'm going through my voice as well that is Anyone knows that boy I Don't know. He's just so sorry. anyone knows that boy I Don't know. He's just so sorry.